Last night I had another weird dream. I woke up with a horrible ache in my neck and shoulder; I think I pulled a muscle or two. Spasming, twitching, and a brief Charlie Horse I think at one point. After an hour or so, I had the strength and presence of mind to reach for my cell phone and call for a family member to bring me some ice packs.
The muscle aches and sudden contractions have been dreadfully painful today -- spreading to my mid-back and upper arm. Constant icing, Tiger Balm, Ibuprofen, resting. Ugh. I didn't take a shower today because my upper body is in so much pain. Standing up for a few minutes is difficult, but lifting my arms above my shoulders would be near-impossible. Some people describe this pain as "coat-hanger pain" - pain in the upper back, shoulders, and neck.
Time for another Symptom Clarification! [Pretend it's a game show.]
Palpitations - abnormal awareness of the beating of the heart (Wikipedia, 2009).
When I say I'm having heart palpitations, they generally
- are painful, pounding
- are "loud" or in my ears
- feel faster than normal
- sometimes occur in strange places, e.g., temples, neck, ankles, behind my knees, etc.
- frequently occur along with headaches, chest pain, and joint pain.
Comments like "So have you finished your book yet? Now that you've got time to write a book!" are not unfamiliar. They have tons of love behind them, and are meant to compliment my writing (I think). But at that moment I'm in so much pain, and I'm short of breath, and my thinking is foggy...I'm not doing well.
What are you kidding me? Time? Does everyone think I'm just having fun, sitting on an unspecified amount of free time here? I'm not sure if they understand. If this is an "opportunity," it's a twisted one at that. Distraction and escapism have become close friends.
I'm still trying to find a way to explain everything to my friends. "Constant pain, chronic fatigue, and we know almost nothing about it"-- I'm not sure if that says enough about POTS. Sheesh. A prize to anyone who can explain it in 3 sentences or less. (And for you grammar-lovers: No Semi-colons! An independent clause is an independent clause. Period!)
Oh, I just crack myself up sometimes. :P
Anyway, enjoy this video. Danny Gokey + Blues = Exceptional!
I dig the 15-piece jazz band,