Marching Bands of Manhattan - Death Cab For Cutie

Very tired. My heart hurts. Not able to do much. However I have found a nice rotation between PBS Kids, figure skating, and C-SPAN.

I'm flying home on Monday!

et

Frown

A beautiful day here, sunny and 80. Thought these conditions would be ideal, but it was a long, rough day. So disconnected cognitively. Heart palpitations, crazy fatigue, headaches, etc. Bed-bound. Had a couple better hours in the evening. Not a lot of rhyme or reason.

Trying to cope with my limitations. I can pray for Haiti. It's enough.

emma

Tra-la-la

Yesterday: pretty good. Today: not so much. Chest pain, jerking/shaking, and fatigue. Unpredictable! Gr!

And just for kicks: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pVo-S9ns2_A

like...cool

et

Poli-tics

Up-and-down today. My brain's doing better overall, but struggling with ticks and muscle twitching. Taking it easy.

Pleased to meet a few neighbors: Bry, CeCe, and Princess. Unique for the area, we play neither golf nor tennis. I think I'll fit in just fine... provided I bring enough doggie treats to go around. :)

cable news...it's sensational!!!!

oh the hype,
et

Extending Stay

It's frustrating and scary and cold. Long days. Neuro/cognitive problems, fatigue, vision weakness... who knows how much is due to the freezing cold? I was an absolute mess at home. Found a decent living situation here, but it's not worth a dime if I'm not FEELING better.

Consensus: Need more time to make a decision. I'll stay here with my grandparents through the week. It's supposed to be sunny and warmer, which will be a more accurate trial for my health than this crazy, fluky weather. Then we will reevaluate whether to (a) find more independent residence in FL; (b) return to IL and stick it out; (c) continue looking for places in San Diego; (d) meh. There's always Narnia.

Mom is flying back tomorrow. Lots to settle still.

So the goals this week: Monitor my health. Take care of myself. Salt, water, meds, sun, exercise some. No guilt, no worries. Things will turn out.

True story:

[Waiting to be seated at a restaurant. Me: weak and fading fast. Standing room only. Five minutes. Desperately snagged a place to sit.]
Elderly woman: Excuse me, dear, I have a back problem. [We make room. She sits, chuckles.] Aw, you girls are too young to have problems.
[Painful, painful glances.]
Me: You'd be surprised.

be kind out there,
emma

Hello, Florida

Low temps and snowy weather in Chicago have been unbearable for me. Extreme fatigue and confusion. Our flight was only delayed by a few hours. It's unseasonably cool in Fort Myers, but we'll take it.

Drove around. Saw apartments. The sun felt great this morning. There's a big storm coming in tomorrow, and it's really affecting me. [Notice how there's always a storm. Way to go, metaphors.]

There are SO many components to think through. My future here or anywhere? Only time will tell.

emma

Title Wave...wave!

On Thursday, my mom and I are flying to Florida. We get to visit my grandparents. Plus I need to escape the winter here. I hope I will feel better. Perhaps I will find some housing nearby and end up staying for a while.

[Non-committal statements]

Sorry if my blogging becomes less detailed and less frequent. I need to pack and think and prepare my repertoire for auditions due in, oh, three weeks.

You are really cool and I will do my very best to get back to emails...someday!

Happy New Year!
emma