Save the Whales

So warm out today! Walked 20ish minutes. Gotta get a dog who has more stamina than me. Ze fluffer-pup pooped out halfway home.

Same physical symptoms as yesterday.

Fantasizing about making cookies. Maybe I'll rest up and get to it tomorrow.

peace out,
emma

Thank You, Tiger Balm

Set my alarm for 7 this morning, ample time to get ready for class at 9. Unfortunately, the buzzing found me in the midst of a series of horrific nightmares. Sweating, heart-racing, the whole nine yards. Really achy. Eyes felt very heavy and I felt compelled to defeat the dream, so I went back to sleep. An hour later, Mom came in to wake me and I think I screamed. Just major bad news all around. Still in pain, took a couple ibuprofen, slapped some more tiger balm on my torso, and wrestled with the freaky dream for another couple hours. Awoke feeling totally wiped out. (That tiger balm stuff is great though--like menthol for your muscles.)

Will try to go to class next week if possible.

Otherwise, lots of dizziness/vertigo today, vision problems, hard to read and concentrate. Experiencing more and more short-term memory loss, constantly forgetting the point I was trying to make in a sentence, and brushing my teeth twice.

The cell phone charger my mom and I share has mysteriously bit the dust. Please call on the home line for the coming week. We're almost at the point where we can get new phones for free...no sense in buying a new charger until then.

Malcolm in the Middle makes me feel better about my entirely dysfunctional family. :)

Walked outside today 20 minutes! So much warmer than a few days ago.

listening to u2's the joshua tree over and over,
emma

Chicka-pow

Couldn't sleep last night, despite the snooze meds. Lots of back pain and nightmares...esp about stevenson. weird.

Today, surprisingly a bit perkier. Got a rheumatologist appt for next Tues. If it doesn't go so hot, we're seriously considering the Mayo Clinic in Minnesota. Like to hear that my health is so important :)

Feet, right hand, and nose have been completely numb for the last several hours. Uncomfortable.

GOOD NEWS!! I have learned how to work the DVR! it's amazing!

hoping to be well enough to go to class tomorrow? "Film and Society" 9am-noon. Don't usually get up until 10:30, but we'll see what happens.

joan of arcadia!
emma

Cauliflower

Hi.

I'm trying to keep positive. Sorry I haven't been calling or returning calls. Just not interested in talking about my health. That's why I'm keeping this...so you can be informed.

Still very tired, very little energy; chest pain. Walked around the house a bit, stopped after 10 minutes due to developing headache.

I think if I'm going to shave my head, I might dye my hair purple first. ;)

Able to sing a lil bit today. Range is about half an octave, but hey, I'll take it.

My GP called today, suggesting I come in for a diet consultation. Idk if that's affecting me much, but whatevs.

Oh. And my pastor's leaving my church in June. And my pastor's family! Meaning their children! Hello?! Not okay! Those kids are some of my favorite to babysit for. *sniffle* Maybe if I get better I can sit for them one more time.

Oh, life. Where did you go.

burying my head in my hands. again.
emma

I Believe Every Month Should Have an Obscure Rodent Day

Very, very tired. Hard to keep eyes open.

Lots of chest pain and palpitations.

Hoping I get a spurt of energy soon.

thank God and great chefs for delicious chili,
emma

Tar and Feathers

The neurologist appt did not go well. Butthead.

He said that he was not the doctor to see; I should go to a rheumatologist. Then he proceeded to ask a million stupid questions about my condition that were ALL already answered in the medical files we'd sent over. What a dork-brain. Stupid loser face.

Discouraged like none other. We have to wait 2-4 more months before it can be diagnosed Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. And then it's considered a lifelong condition that can just come and go at any time for no reason.

What the heck. I suck at this game.

looking for the silver lining,
emma

Crayon. One syllable or two?

Good news!! Legs not sore today! A little pain in my lower back, and strange recurring headaches. My heart hurts, like something's stepping on it.

BUT! Hey! I'm so happy. Walked 22 minutes today :) We'll see how things are going tomorrow.

Tomorrow!! Neurologist tomorrow!! YES!

don't forget to floss,
emma